Why ?

I miss you my sid , i don't know why but when i endcall with my boy , i always remember about you , i don't want the thing like this keep going . I want you just disapear from my mind n my heart , because if like this i really hurt my boy :( . The memories between you n me always spining around in my mind . Why all that you do to are to good to be true . Although the bad memories seem good for me . I really miss your shoulder , i miss you lips your smell your arms . You you youuu , i miss miss youuu :( . I wonder hv you ever miss me ? Feel what i feel ? I just can't move on . Whenever i think bout you whenever i remember or look at you photo , seems like my heart is just hurt so badly . I always wanna cry . All that i want is to be with you . If i had one more chance , i will never ever let you go . N never walk away again . So soory n i forgive ur mistake too . Please back to me . Just to have you , i will be the happiest person in the world . I can't feel the feeling like when i'm with you with another man . My secret that everyone don't know is i still love you n waiting for you love . I will wait nomatter howlong it take . Because i love you really . Just you . I still search everything about you . Sometimes i just to tired . You know how hard i try to just take your attention . You know how hard i try to get you back , to tell you that i still love you . Everything i ever do just to tell you i still care n love you . But seems you really don't care :( . I already tired to cry , to try n to love you . But my heart just don't care . And still wanna love you . I can't see my future without you . Its all seem like a big hole n i'm alone . Will you back ? Will you be my man again ?? Sorry for my boyfriend but i still love my ex , you just don't know what i really feel . I can fake my heart . But the real one i still think about him . I miss you my sid . I really miss you . Wish you can be mine again n love each other like we used to :)